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Is it getting better? Is it getting worse? Was it ever worth it? [Aug. 30th, 2005|12:50 am]
Choko
[Current Mood |depresseddepressed]
[Current Music |Reggie and the Full Effect "Get Well Soon"]

Current Goal: Distract self from all I'm leaving behind. Attempt to be happier for arrival to college.

So I leave for college in a little more than 24 hours.

I'm not really even sure what to say. I miss my friends. Leaving everyone at McDonald's was really hard. Saying goodbye to Matt made me kind of nauseous. Randy was crying. Glenn told me to take care of myself and then told me a touching story.

Everyday when he leaves McDonald's, he goes straight to the cemetary to visit his wife. She's been dead for years now, but he continues to go everyday to see her. "My friends told me I should stop and leave it in the past, but for 50 years I woke up every morning and there she was... I never want that to change. So I still spend every morning with her."

I wonder if I'll ever be that in love with someone...?

I hate to leave now. The feeling of being with someone who understands you is amazing. That when you're sweating in a nasty uniform and you look your worst, he just smiles and says you are beautiful. When sitting outside on the steps together staring at nothing for hours seems like only moments. When the moment he's in the room, you smile. When he makes you laugh constantly, unexpectedly. When just talking to him makes your day better. When you get so angry with him, but the moment he appears before you, you forget to be mad. When everytime he makes eye contact with you, your breath catches just a little bit. When he gives you one last kiss, your tears stop momentarily.

Thanks for the memories.
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Well if you wanted honesty, that's all you had to say [Aug. 12th, 2005|06:24 pm]
Choko
[Current Mood |numbnumb]
[Current Music |All-American Rejects "Dirty Little Secret"]

Well.

Yesterday was pretty normal. I went to work. Heather visited. Kristen visited. My coworkers and I fooled around most of the day. I was tired as hell by 2:00 and was simply overjoyed to FINALLY get out of there after over eight hours.

So I drove out. Sat at the light waiting to turn left onto Plainfield. The light turned green, and the two cars in front of me turned left. I pulled out into the intersection to follow them.

I only had time to turn myself away from the door when a car barreled right through the red light and smashed into my car.

After that it was just panic. I'm trying to get out of my car, but the door is crushed shut. People are running up to me and telling me not to move. I'm shaking so much I can barely climb out the other side. Two men help me out, another is on his phone. I hear sirens. Police, firemen, an ambulance. They take me into the ambulance and my pulse is over 125 and my blood pressure is nearing 145/80. Mmm... oxygen.

By the time I am a little calmer they're asking if I need to go to the hospital. I decline their offer.

I end up sitting in the police cruiser until he takes me home. It lasted about 2 hours total.

All-in-all, I was fucking lucky. Sure, my car's gone to shit. The front left wheel is off, the door is smashed shut and the front bumper and lights are in pieces. They had to tow it away because it couldn't be driven. On the brighter-side, I'm sore all over and have a headache and some bruises, but I could've died. So hey, I was lucky.

Anyway, it definitely made me have one of those moments. In the two seconds between when I spotted the car and it hit me, time did go slowly. I guess the main question I asked was, "Is this it?" It really made me realize I have so much more I want to do in my life before it's over.

In the end, he got cited for the accident, was given a ticket for running the light, and his insurance company has to cover it all. Still, it all feels a little unfair. You can drive defensively all you want, but when a man drives right through a solid red light, how can you possibly expect it?

Ah well. I'm alive and, though in pain, I'm well.
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I don't blame you for being you but you can't blame me for hating it [Aug. 8th, 2005|01:28 pm]
Choko
[Current Mood |contemplativecontemplative]
[Current Music |Fall Out Boy "A Little Less Sixteen Candles..."]

So what's a girl supposed to think when her boyfriend goes MIA? As in doesn't show up to work, isn't at home, doesn't call her for 2 days, and then finally calls her only to say,

"Sarah, we need to talk. Call me."

And then doesn't even leave the number she needs to call?

I know he's a total space-case, but this is extreme.

I'm sensing one thing here.

I'm about to be single again.

Dammit.
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So go on, live your life. But I miss you more than I did yesterday. [Jul. 27th, 2005|07:58 pm]
Choko
[Current Mood |energeticenergetic]
[Current Music |My Chemical Romance "Early Sunsets Over Monroe"]

Um, hey all. As usual, I forget to post. Ooooh well.

Fun, death, MCR, and FOB = the Warped TourCollapse )

And now, a bit of media joy for us all... XD

Some weird MCR photos that amuse me.

If this is what you want...Then fire at will.Collapse )

Ok, Fall Out Boy time, bitches.

And if you say this makes you happy, then I'm not the only one lying.Collapse )

Yay! I updated a lot of stuff! XD Woooo. Anyway, I'm out.
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(no subject) [Jul. 5th, 2005|10:17 pm]
Choko
[Current Mood |amusedamused]
[Current Music |Relient K "Be My Escape"]

Ok, so I should totally be asleep right now seeing as I have to be up at 5:15 to go and serve deadly food to the masses...

But hey, I'm still awake. Working at McDonald's is interesting to say the least. Sure, sometimes it sucks, and my shifts can be 9 hours long (o_O) but a lot of the time it is a mix of frantic rushing, hilarious mistakes, dumb co-workers, and asshole customers. At the end of the day (after a bit of yelling and rolling around) I usually just come to the conclusion that work was... kind of fun. ^^;;

It's a scarily amount similar to highschool. There's gossip, strange love triangles, and bitch-fits. Only, now, a lot of the people involved in this are grown adults. Does that make it funny or sad? Hmmm... Anyway, Jordan and the Retarded Fry Girl will soon be separated, Chris will soon be back, and Mike's ass has yet to become mine. Goddammit. I'll keep trying though. Anyway, because the cast of people I work with is so damned weird, let me introduce a few to you:

Laura - My favorite manager in the whole world ^_^ She works morning shift with me and just may be the normalest person in the entire place. <3 for Laura.

Gina - She's deaf in one ear but man does she make sandwiches quickly. She also kicks Eric in the nuts all the time, which earns her many points.

Eric - Fat, dirty, and has probably never heard of a toothbrush. He likes to lie a lot and can often be found hitting on the retarded fry girl. He's married to a 300 pound stripper and claims to speak 7 languages (including 4 dead ones). Uh-huh.

The Retarded Fry Girl - She's retarded and makes fries. And gets more ass than I do. ... Why is that?! Jordan has been chasing her for months but their romance is doomed!!! ;_;

Jordan - A stupid ass who rides a bike even though he's 18 'cause he doesn't know how to drive. He's in love with the retarded fry girl, but is moving to Norwood soon. He can't ride his bike /that/ far. Nooooooo!!!

Steven - Hilarious and really amusing, but has a thing for me that I just can't seem to appreciate. ~_~;; We're cool though. He's pretty high on the normal scale, though he likes slapping things out my hands, which really annoys me. ><;;

Kayla - The resident whore who's not only stupid, but also veeeeerrrry slow at everything. Her ex-boyfriend and a Kroger employee fight over her daily and even pass me notes to give her when they come through the drive-through. They even had it out over her in the middle of the store the other day. It was lame.

Al - The 50-something year-old dude who works with me in the front. He's a super-weird control freak who calls me "little girl" and takes things out of my hands because he thinks I can't do it. As Shaunice says, "That's one weird nigga!"

Shaunice - A 16 year-old ghetto-fied girl who spends all day saying, "Issat all? Issat all?" Customers sometimes complain to me saying she's rude as I'm handing them their orders. But honestly, she's just black and angry.

Yelena - The craziest mananger in the place. Yelena has a burning hatred for Elton John and screams while making sandwiches. The most common thing people say to her is "Keep your shirt on, Yelena."

Sherry - A bitch.

Dani - A fatter bitch. Unfortunately, also the Asst. store manager. She never wants to do anything so she'll come and take 20 orders and then leave me to run them all for her. >_O

Barb - The franchise owner who is the nicest little old woman EVER. She calls me her pet, but I don't mind. ^_^

Randy - The manager who doesn't know what he's doing. He arrives everyday looking tired and then messes up everything before he goes home. He often says, "Excuse you" if he bumps into you and likes to blame everything on me. But that's ok since I can just hit him and he'll shut up.

Thomson - Just a strange manager. He has an African-esque accent, but no one knows why. He's strangely serious at first glance but is actually kind of goofy. He can often be found stealing Diet Coke from the drive thru.

Roxann - Looks to be about 19 years-old. So imagine my surprise when she showed me a picture of eight people and said, "These are my kids!"

Chris - A nice guy who REALLY has a thing for me. Too bad he's just not attractive. We like the same stuff as far as music, movies, etc, and we get along well as friends. He's my Fry Bitch and I'm his Sauce Whore, so it's all good. Too bad he's ugly.

Mike - A nice guy who I kind of have a thing for. Or this really tall guy who has a really small car, or this guy who has no teeth, or this guy who has almost ODed twice. Four Mike's work at this McDonald's. >< The one who has almost ODed twice was affectionately named Statutory by me after he made a sexual comment to me. We all call him that now.

And um, those are just the ones I can think of right now...

Anyway, Chris is coming back tomorrow so it'll be kind of weird if we see each other. EVERYONE knows he likes me, so they're all kind of being annoying about it. Jordan was really pushing for me to give Chris a chance, but I like Mike more. Here's to hoping it won't be another shift with Chris AND Mike. That sucked.

Good night, all!

Oh yeah, and we finished Loveless 12 today! The last episode is really really cool, so I hope everyone enjoys it! XD

P.S. I love Fall Out Boy and my favorite member is Ricardo because he plays the harmonica. <3
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i'm not being biased i just don't like it and think it's disgusting and that it shouldn't exist [Jun. 23rd, 2005|06:09 pm]
Choko
[Current Mood |annoyedannoyed]
[Current Music |Kare Kano OST]

The above is a direct quote.


DEAR EVERYONE,

SHUT UP! I DON'T CARE IF YOU THINK THAT SOMETHING SUCKS. NO ONE CARES WHAT YOU THINK IF ALL YOU'RE EVER GOING TO DO IS GO ON AND ON ABOUT HOW IT'S NASTY OR STUPID OR RETARDED AND YOU DON'T WANT ANYTHING TO DO WITH IT. GOOD FOR YOU. I DON'T GIVE A FUCK. SOMEONE LIKES IT SO LET THEM HAVE THEIR OWN FUCKING OPINION. THERE'S NO SUCH THING AS RIGHT OR WRONG WHEN SOMEONE /LIKES/ SOMETHING. I DON'T CARE WHAT IT IS. IF THEY LIKE IT, YOU CAN FUCK OFF AND LEAVE THEM ALONE ABOUT IT.

AND NO, THIS DOESN'T APPLY TO ILLEGAL THINGS, BUT OF COURSE, YOU'D MISS THAT POINT TOO, WOULDN'T YOU?

IN CONCLUSION, BIGOTED, CLOSE-MINDED BASTARDS CAN KEEP THEIR OPINIONS TO THEMSELVES. I DON'T WANT TO HEAR THEM.

LOVE,
SARAH



P.S. WHY DO YOU NEED TO MAKE AN ANTI COMMUNITY? IS IT REALLY NECESSARY TO CREATE A COMMUNITY SO THAT EVERYONE CAN COME TOGETHER AND TALK ABOUT WHY THEY HATE SOMETHING? SO THAT THEY CAN TEAR DOWN WHAT OTHER PEOPLE LIKE? STOP BEING ANNOYED BY WHAT OTHER PEOPLE ENJOY AND GET A FUCKING HOBBY.

P.P.S.
13 YEAR-OLD YAOI FANGIRLS NEED TO DIE. NOT EVERY ONE OF THEM IS STUPID, BUT SERIOUSLY, SHUT THE FUCK UP. I DON'T CARE IF YOU LOOOOOOOOVE SAKUMA RYUICHI AND THINK THAT YUKI EIRI IS THE HOTTEST PERSON EVER. CONGRATS TO YOU. STOP THINKING YOU CAN JUST SIT THERE AND HELP ADD ANYTHING TO A CONVERSATION JUST BECAUSE YOUR MOMMY LET YOU SEE SHUICHI GIVE KISSY-KISSIES TO YUKI. AND STOP USING HORRIBLE FANGIRL JAPANESE THAT DOESN'T MEAN ANYTHING! IF SOMEONE SPEAKS TO YOU, YOU DO NOT NEED TO REPLY WITH:

"Ano watashi like gravi bc ryuuuchan is sooooo super kawaiii1!!11"

*TEARS OUT EYES*

AND NO, PLEASE DON'T GIVE ME A LECTURE ABOUT WHAT BL, YAOI, AND SHOUNEN-AI MEAN. I AM NOT IMPRESSED. I'M GLAD YOU CAN READ YAOI-CON'S HOMEPAGE. MAYBE 10 YEARS FROM NOW YOU WILL BE ABLE TO ACTUALLY GO TO YAOI-CON SINCE YOU HAVE TO BE 18 TO ATTEND.

AND I KNOW YOU DON'T REALLY READ JAPANESE, SO STOP PRETENDING YOU DO. NO ONE FINDS YOU ANY COOLER WHEN YOU SAY YOU CAN READ RAW MANGA AND THEN NEGLECT TO TRANSLATE A PAGE BECAUSE YOU ARE "TOO BUSY" TO DO IT. AND THEN SIMPLY AGREE WITH MY TRANSLATION WHEN I TRANSLATE IT.

SO SHUT UP! GO WATCH INUYASHA AND LEAVE ME IN PEACE!!!!!

THE END

I'M GOING TO GO AND LISTEN TO MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE. AND NO, I DON'T CARE IF YOU THINK THEY SUCK.



That felt rather good.
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Yeah. For example, like this. [Jun. 2nd, 2005|06:04 pm]
Choko
[Current Mood |confusedconfused]
[Current Music |My Chemical Romance "The Ghost of You"]

When I was in middle school, my cat died. Really, it wasn't that I was keeping him. He was probably a stray. Frankly speaking, I don't really remember what he looked like. The feeling of his soft warm body and his hair...

Truly, that's all.

He wasn't named.

I found his corpse on my way home as the sun was setting.

It was probably done by a stray dog. The flowing blood and intestines shining with a dull black luster seemed to block the sidewalk.

In the black holes where he lost his eyes, a deep and thorough eternity of darkness extended.

'Tomorrow, when the trash is collected, there will be no traces of his death.'

Gripping him in my thin arms, I lifted him. His dangling body, one soul lighter, without the suppleness of life, was distortedly rigid.

He probably had been born to die in this way.

I had a hunch even though I wasn't a prophet, and suddenly a laugh welled up.

"Someday, I too will die with my guts scattered."


...


ANGSSSSSTTTTTT

Sorry, that's from Wild Adapter, and I loved it sooooo much that I needed to put it somewhere... So here it is! ^^;; Damn japanese for sounding so awkward in english! >_< Jemmy always was obsessed with the art in Wild Adapter so I went and found the scans. lol They're... ANGST!!!

Ok, so it's only been about 3 years since I've updated this journal. A lot has happened so I won't even bother to recite it here. Lalala, time passed, blah school, grah APs, oh suffering, I hate some people, etc. But none of that really matters too much now, huh?

So tomorrow, I'm graduating from highschool. It's kind of weird... wait, strike that, REALLY weird. Goodbye to one chapter of my life. It's kind of a strange feeling, and I would ponder it more, but it's not really necessary right now. I just kind of want to relax today. ^_^

Oh, today was awards day and I won the history dept award. I was really happy =D I've never won anything in my life so it was totally new to me, plus I really wasn't expecting it. I'd like to record Turansky's speech here for history's sake.

"Er.. Kant..KERRR...Sarah Edelstein...GRAH"

It was perfect. XD

In other news, Jemma waxed me. OW THAT FUCKING HURT!!! NEVER AGAIN!

And, NO, it wasn't my bikini line. Perverts.

In other, other news, fansubbing is the most painful experience an anime fan can go through. I'd recommend not doing it. Unless you're a masochist, or just really fucking love the show you are subbing. (I'd say both apply to me...) Luckily, we've reached Loveless 09 and soon the pain will be over. (SCORE!!) After that, our joint projects are allllll done. (SCORE!!)

Loveless 08 made me cry. I hope everyone enjoys it. Should be out tomorrow. 09 is almost even better. ^^;; And the preview for 10... XD

Dai-juu NAMELESS.

Evil Nagisa-sensei(tm): Soubi-kun, kimi wa ima watashi no mono da yo.
aka. [said in a degrading manner] Soubi, you still belong to me.

<3

Why do I dig that? Poor Ritsuka. ~_~;; Maybe it's because it is in the voice of my one true love... Koyasu-sama~~! Hanyaaa~~~ *faints*

Oh, I have a new layout. Look at it, bitches. I like...did stuff. It's from Loveless, and Ritsuka and Soubi are going to bone! (WORD!) Soon, I'll even have a new Loveless mood theme to replace Hyde. "Soon."

Additionally, my cousin whom I love got married but I was forced to be near the creep of the universe, my nasty cousin Kevin. Ewww. Do all cousins greet each other by kissing hands???? -_- Anyway, congrats to wondrous Stephen and Heather! ^____^

Oh, and I almost forgot. My IPod is now working, and it asked me to name it. So it's name is ... dun dun dun...

Ren. *laughs* I'm so...cool.

Well, this is enough for now. I wonder if anyone remembers that I'm alive?
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Another Birthday? Loser-ness ahead... [Mar. 21st, 2005|09:49 pm]
Choko
[Current Mood |dorkydorky]
[Current Music |Midorikawa Hikaru "Go Ahead"]

Well, March 21st is Suki na mono wa Sukidakara Shouganai's main character's birthday!

Happy Birthday, Sora!

Here's wishing you...Collapse )

Ok, I'm stupid. But really, happy birthday to another fictional character!
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I am GOD. It has been CONFIRMED. [Mar. 14th, 2005|11:15 pm]
Choko
[Current Mood |amusedamused]
[Current Music |Withering to Death stuff]

If I were God over LiveJournal... by shinikami
Username
Jesus would be_irishfire
The four archangels would berun_me_down
andsweet_adeline_
andsaywhatagain
and_snarla
The Blessed Virgin would beo0wallflower0o
Satan would bediscobagel
The antichrist would bemynocturne
And YOU would beDead
Quiz created with MemeGen!


I think that's fairly accurate. Two couples for my archangels, Shannon as Jesus, a jew as the devil, and Jemma as... wait, maybe it's not accurate.
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Ok, and so... [Mar. 10th, 2005|08:52 pm]
Choko
[Current Mood |peacefulpeaceful]
[Current Music |Dir en Grey "Saku"]

And now, I will affirm my losery-ness.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, REMUS!!

And on March 10, somewhere circa 1959, Remus Lupin was born. And it was good.
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